I can ask... but doesn't mean I'll get it.

JEREMIAH 15:18
" Why is my pain perpetual
and my wound incurable,
Which refuses to be healed?
Will you surely be to like an
unreliable stream, as waters
that fail?"


It is in this moment 12:09 a.m. that I realized how truly small I am.
I can never repay the trust or the patience you have shown, and I can
only ask for you to forgive me. I know that I have been forgiven by the LORD
JESUS Christ, but it is you that I have hurt.
I love you so deeply, that it took loosing you to bring me back to HIM. I know that
you are angry and hurt and that forgiveness is probably out of the question. But if GOD
deems it, I will pray and hope that you and I may be friends once again, and that the
strength of our friendship will grow stronger than ever before. This I pray nightly and I know
that it will be in GOD'S time, not yours or mine.
Things are changing for me, in ways that my faith has never known. I know that with his guidance I can succeed, but to walk without him is certain doom. I miss you and I love you.
Forever and a Day.